It’s all about the positioning.

And the intentionality of the act of lighting. Of finding the oil, getting the base steady enough so it won’t topple over, finding the right amount of cover so that the a stray gust of wind won’t snuff it out, and positioning it so it’s of the maximum use to people.

Lighting a light takes planning and time, if you want to do it right, and not have to come back to it time and again to keep re-lighting and re-positioning.

When you light something in a particular position, you also accept that there’s somewhere where the light may not reach, but that’s ok. You’ve positioned the light so it will be effective where you feel it’s needed and so no need to worry about where it won’t be seen. In the big picture, there’ll be other lights on, so no one gets lost.

And the final effect? People find their way to where they are going, what they are looking for, and can see one another clearly, as well as themselves. Sometimes, they’ll realise what they are looking for isn’t that great after all, and start a new journey to look for something new. Other times, the light will point out dangers looming in their path for them to avoid. Or ensure that other people can find them to give them a helping hand. And we can choose to journey with these people.

When we light our lights well, we save lives.


You are the light of the world. A city that is set on a hill cannot be hidden. Nor do they light a lamp and put it under a basket, but on a lampstand, and it gives light to all who are in the house. Let your light so shine before men, that they may see your good works and glorify your Father in heaven.” Matt 5:14-16


Taking the plunge

These few weeks really seem like the start of something momentous. The buildup to this was rocky; my research topic being bounced back, my loan application failing, and my hunt for a place to stay in after June still not turning up any leads.  Not to mention the occasionally overwhelming sense of loneliness that still stops me in my tracks note and again. 

Looking forward to the next few weeks, I’ll be looking at a new place to stay, a refocus of my research topic, and a reallocation of my loan. Plus finally ‘finding out’ about how friends relationships are going, while certainly a great occasion for everyone involved, will hopefully give me some closure. 

Holding my breath and praying for grace. 

Random thoughts

but now, thus says the Lord, your creator, O Jacob, and He who formed you, O Israel, Do not fear, for I have redeemed you; I have called you by name;you are Mine!

When you pass through the waters, I will be with you; and through the rivers, they will not overflow you. When you walk through the fire, you will not be scorched, nor will the flame burn you.

Isa 43:1-2

But you are a chosen people, a royal priesthood, a holy nation, a people for God’s own possession, to proclaim the virtues of Him who called you out of darkness into His marvelous light 1 pet 2:9

Where can i go from your Spirit? Or where shall i for from your presence? If i ascend to heaven, you are there! If i make my bed in Sheol, you are there! Ps 139:7-8
I consider that our present sufferings are not comparable to the glory that will be revealed in us rom 8:18

For our light and momentary troubles are achieving for us an eternal glory that far outweighs them all. So we fix our eyes not on what is seen, but on what is unseen, since what is seen is temporary, but what is unseen is eternal 2 cor 4:17-18

But I will restore you to health and heal your wounds, declares the Lord jer 30:7

And he answered, pursue and you shall surely overtake them and without fail recover all 1 sam 30:8



To know there’s a vast universe out there. Full of unexplored potential. Who knows what we might find, once we start looking.

The depth scares some away. The darkness hiding untold dangers and the possibility of no return to the surface is a deal breaker. No adventure today. Better to not have risked and discovered than possibility of injury and failure.

But for the brave few that step out of the boat and venture into the depths, what their eyes see cannot be conveyed back in a mere written or visual representation. And what often leads them to return again and again, probing ever deeper.



Speak to me

I’m listening.

There are waves ahead, some huge ones I can’t yet see beyond. Clouds gather overhead, meeting the water’s edge, pregnant with the promise of rain. The water is murky, with shapes just below the surface too blurry to make out. With only a faint idea of North, and no assurance of land anytime soon, the captain has to make a decision. Steer by his head and turn around, or steer into the storm and follow his heart.


“For the revelation awaits an appointed time. It speaks of the end and will not prove false. Though it linger, wait for it; it will certainly come, and will not delay.”

Habakkuk 2:3

“My son, pay attention to what I say; turn your ear to my words. Do not let them out of your sight, keep them within your heart; for they are life to those who find them and health to one’s whole body. Above all else, guard your heart, for everything you do flows from it.”

Proverbs 4:20-23

  • how interesting that ‘guarding your heart’ or ‘observing your inner man’ should be so high on the priority list